I really wish that there was something that I could grab a hold of
right now it seems that I am in an ocean of confusion
I am not rooted to anything just floating about in the big
blue and grey water traveling only because the current
takes me where it wishes.. other wise I feel that I would
stand still with no current (time, people, thoughts, occurrences , life, everyday)
moving me along forcing me this way and that I feel as if I am a drifter.
No home. No Branches. Just me.
Not always do I feel so discomforted
sometimes I catch my breath but
but most of the time it is like this.
I am just ready to catch a break.
Be released of this pain that encumbers me.
I resist and fight but there is a retort
an evil laugh that sounds like disgruntled
horrified coyotes in the distance that
grow nearer as I try in spite of it all
to push on to find footing and bearings.
I wish it would end I wish all of this would stop.
Please let me be free of the torment..
Just let me be.
